Monday, 20 January 2014

Average Mediocrity

I sat up late last night entering a competition on Pinterest - the aim is to produce a board that represents your resolutions/goals for 2014 and I enjoyed doing it; then I became depressed and miserable and basically it has got me down a treat.

I am not good at anything. I'm OK - ish. I get by.

Amazingly good? Awesome? Talented? No. Not at anything at all.

I think what has made me realise this (at last) is looking for work. Obviously I gave up employment to look after Mum and now she has gone I just do not know what to do. I can't afford to retrain. I can't afford to go back to Uni, so I suppose I have to be realistic and face that it is factory or sales of some sort. neither of which I can imagine doing but needs must.

I need some goals, maybe I should make a list? I like lists especially when I remember to read them!

I don't know when this happened I always seemed to think I did have some sort of quality that I could use in a practical sense, but I must have packed it when I moved.....